sordid love affair?

you know, in a world full of temptation and difficult decisions its occurred to me who needs boyfriends when you can't even choose between a banjo and a bass. the great thing, is you don't have too!

What a relief!

I can have both; its like eating cake.

I love paulo nutini, too bad he's too young for me.

maybe this is the one

In my continuous quest for my life long love I am taking up the double bass. I'm even starting lessons on the 14th of October, which is great cause you can't take lessons for the banjo where I live.

I haven't given up the banjo...but i figured why choose? when you can have both.

wow, suddenly this reminds me of my relationship issues. Sigh.

Boring

Sorry to my three fans for not blogging for the past week.

I've been actually doing some productive things, well, that and playing some online games at work. So, its pretty much the same old.

I've made the following decisions in my life recently.

1) i'm not going to weigh myself until my tight jeans are loose
2) i have been using relationships with men as a distraction from pursuing my passion and therefor, i must work now very hard at not being distracted.

3)....i think thats all, i guess one could be, i will not eat cheese. i tried it last night melted on some chips (yum) raging headache after for hours, no suprise, that used to happen all the time.

In other news I have been playing the stand up bass quite badly, but loving it. I can play C, A, G and F. Its miraculous!

Todays post dedicated to CAKE!

Here is a picture of a carrot cake that I gave myself the bounty of a slice. Ooo was it fantastic. I just love cake and as you know I haven't been eating sugar or wheat so this was a "cheat" and the sugar would set me back as far as getting rid of the candida. But on the otherhand a small slice of home made carrot cake made with spelt flower and little sugar seems the kind of thing you must have in order to feel like a regular human being. After 3 weeks of being good, it was time for a treat.

In other news I finally lost 1.5 lbs. so with that success under my belt I am ready for more! I tried a different location of my gym, people are still weird...same anorexic girl was there. But as i become more confident in my belonging at a gym I don't notice them as much.

Here is my brother. As you can see loving cake runs in the family.

green tea

i'm desperate for a pick me up today, i'm drinking green tea.

now let me say, i am a tea purist. I dont drink that fruity stuff with ginseng and good karma, i'm a straight black tea with milk kinda gal. so for me to be drinking green tea which doesn't even taste like sunshine? well, this is a new low.

my work comes close to a halt in the summer, so my days are epically long and there are a few things to do but I don't seem to get to them. yesterday i did happen to fit in three episodes of 30 Rock. Which was fantastic! i think i'll have to do the same thing today since its 9:15 and i wish i had a sick day to use and just go home.

i'm in week three of the candida diet. i've got one foot in the door of "this ain't so bad" mode of thinking and the other foot lies in "i hate my life why can't i eat marshmellows and peanut butter???!!!!". i'm hoping i gain some acceptance and feel the total freedom of some guidelines..isn't that what they say? that i should feel even more freedom because I'm not eating food that is killing me?

i'm really happy to discover another friend of mine was on the candida diet last winter and has been eating differently every since so that in addition to my best friend following the diet i feel like a support group is gathering. soon i'm sure we will have broccoli parties to celebrate all that is right with veggies.